Tonight, I spend some time at the Institute Women s Association Banquet, and saw the example of many girls' and womens' kindness and service. I thought about how awesome they are, and I realized; I am not as much like them as I want to be.
After realizing that, I did a little self-reprimanding. I have this idea of the type of woman I want to be, but i honestly haven't been working toward it. In fact, I often work against that goal. I stress over insignificant things, I think negative thoughts about others, I complain, I waste time, and (this one bothers me the most) I rarely think of things I can do for others. I used to be so much better at giving other people attention, and now that i have lost that, I sincerely think it has made me an unhappy person.
I thought: Brynn, you are getting married in two months! Isn't it about time to try to become the woman you always said you would be? You said you would spread love to other people. Why don't you do that anymore?"
This is the type of woman I am going to strive to be:
I want to be the woman that always makes others feel welcome and comfortable.
I want to be the woman that others feel like they can trust and rely on.
The woman that isn't overly concerned with herself is the woman i want to be.
The woman that doesn't seek attention from others, but knows that when she gives to others, it comes back to her.
I want to be the woman that makes all the most fun birthday cakes and the cutest clothing.
I want to be the woman who's house is clean and smells sweet.
The woman who's home is a positive environment is the woman I want to be.
I want to be that woman who takes good care of herself.
I want to be the woman who doesn't think or speak ill of others.
I want to be that woman who doesn't let the thing that angry, negative people do ruin her day.
The woman who finds joy in creativity.
The woman who doesn't always depend on 0thers to feel happy.
I want to be the woman who gets dressed down to her shoes and cleans the bathroom every morning.
The woman that willingly develops and shares her talents is the woman I want to be.
The woman who shares the richness of nature with others and enjoys spending time outdoors.
The woman that always gives encouragement to others is the woman I want to be.
I want to be the woman who kindly and humbly stands up for what she believes in.
I want to be the woman who never, ever, belittles her husband or her children.
The woman who teaches her children the importance of respect and care is the woman I want to be.
The woman who is involved in her interests is the woman I want to be.
I want to be the woman that still knows how to get out and have fun, even if she's married.
I want to be the woman who has inner strength.
The woman that finds joy in giving service, and makes it fun for others.
The woman relies on Christ for direction in her life.
That's what I want to be. I would highly encourage everyone to think of the most wholesome, unselfish, and the best they can be, and try their best to become that person. I can't change into this person all at once, no one can, but every step of the way will add a little extra beauty and peace to my life.
