I'm the paradox.

Today, I was just cleaning my room, when my sister Jill came up and asked me what I Craig and I were doing tonight.

"Uh, I dunno, probably playing video games," I replied over the warped tour screamo playing in my CD player.

I then continued to take steps in cleaning up my room, which is teeming with clothes, fashion magazines, craft supplies, accessories, and a horrid mending pile I hate to look at.

"Huh. I am kind of a paradox," I remarked. Jill: "Yes, very much so. "

Jill then went on to explain that sometimes she wonders if she has a split personality or something, because in every career and personality test she took in high school, she got exactly 50% on one end of the spectrum, and 50% on the other end. I can definitely relate to that. I definitely have 2 opposite sides of my personality. I guess? Here's the thing. If I don't think about it too hard, I can easily see two sides of my personality. A nerdy, sciency, fantasy/scifi side, and an artistic, fashion oriented, music and dancing side.

But wait. If I start to think just a little past that, suddenly, my personality seems more overlapped, and scattered. What about the piece of me that loves punk and ska? Or the piece that enjoys watching kids movies? There are so many that i don't feel like fit in those two categories, but aren't big enough to fit in their own.

Somebody with probably try to correct me on this, but this whole train of thought is looking a lot like the infamous double slit experiment, the one that got "quantum weirdness" going.
Here's a video to explain.



So, do you see the connection here with the double slit experiment and what i was saying about personality? Maybe? I think the two different patterns made by the particle is a good visual illustration of the two ways I can look at my personality. Maybe even personality in general! Plus, they way you look at it changes what it does!

And is every body's personality like this? Full of opposites and even contradictions? I think so, at least to a point, although people have pointed out my polar tendencies a lot. Like, more than I've seen with people in general. huh.

Now that I have managed to confuse myself and probably you, just, be yourself. Cus really, it's the best way to be.

Valentime.

Valentine's Day is great when it's on a weekend, because you can use the whole weekend to celebrate it.

At least, that's what Craig and I did. Which wasn't totally out of the norm for us because we are excited for every weekend. So, this is what we did this valentime.

Friday was my day to be the giver. I took Craig snowboarding and taught him the best I could. We had a blast of course, as craig practiced steering and staying upright, and I worked on my toe side and turning 360 degrees without tripping over the snow. Both of us mastered getting off a lift. Yay! This was a huge thing for me, because I am not a bad snowboarder, but i have always had a really hard time getting off the lift without crashing or completely falling! Anyway, we had tones of fun, and afterwards, we went back to my house for some hot chocolate. Both of us were exhausted, and we just sat around and talked and joked around for a while with my sisters Kristan and Sarah. Being really tired yet really happy and excited means, of course, that we made up some stupid jokes. The best joke was, of course, making up funny lyrics to the Oompa Loompa song.

Saturday was Craig's turn. He took me to the Planetarium (my favorite!) and we saw the Dinosaurs 3D movie. yay! Then we went back to his house for some yummy homemade italian. He also made me some delicious cupcakes! I have to say, I really loved the cupcakes. They were marble swirl flavored. After that, we headed over to the adult session of stake conference. It's funny, because both of our stakes were having conference. But we decided to go to mine together. After Stake conference, we went to my house (after getting some more cupcakes from Craig's house) and watched The Empire Strikes Back. Which probably doesn't sound like a very romantic Valentine's Day activity. However, if you know me and Craig, it makes sense, because Star Wars just rocks. Plus, we were too tired to do anything else.

Today we went up to my Aunt's house with some of my family. We had some delicious Barbacoa Pork, played rock band, our own version of pictionary, and saw the cute new little puppies . It was, as usual, a relaxing and fun visit! And then on the way home, we played "Corrupt a wish", which is seriously such a great game.

Spending time with Craig is the best. We are always laughing. And we have such great conversations. Thanks Craig, for being such a sweet and amazing boyfriend!

My happy place.

Every time I go to the Planetarium, my mood is completely elevated past the stars and into nerd heaven.  Something about going and escaping into something educational and fun completely changes how I feel.  It's amazing!

Lately, I have been feeling pretty down, probably due to winter depression, but tonight I went to the Planetarium to preview the new movie Under the Sea. By the time the movie was over, I was back to appreciating the fact that i am alive. By the time I was out of the gift shop, I was quite cheerful! I remember my psychology teacher said that everyone should find one thing that seems to cheer them up no matter what. Then, when you are feeling down, you can try that one thing. If it doesn't cheer you up, you know it's time to seek help. I am starting to think that the planetarium is the thing that always cheers me up.

This preview was really cool, because only planetarium members were invited, so everyone there was like me; someone that enjoys learning about biology and the earth and animals. It was really neat because before the movie, an expert came and talked about the biodiversity of the coral triangle (the area around Papua New Guinea and the Philippines) and the bacteria found on Sea Squirts in that area. It turns out that some of the Strains of these bacteria produce substances that can be used in pharmaceutical drugs.  These bacteria can produce new chronic pain relievers, and fight against tuberculosis and maybe even cancer!

As for the new Under the Sea movie, I highly recommend it. It might get a little "propaganda-ish" on the subject of global warming, but it's not overwhelming and the are many amazing sights to see and facts to learn in this movie.  Sea life is sooo beautiful.  I would really love to go scuba diving someday.  

In other news, I helped out at the primary activity today. I was the caller for bingo. hehehe. I love Primary. I feel like I can't say it enough.  There were lots of perks too. Such as a soon-to-be-decorated door hanger? Oh yeah. And a free cookie. 

And last but not least, I wore my Kermanian Monster fur leg warmers AND my colorful heart tights today, which gave me an instant dosage of happiness as soon as I put them on.  I love my monster fur leg warmers. I should make more, in bright colors.

Crushes.

Most people that know me know that i have a tendency to crush on fictional characters. I have a hard time hiding it! There's just something about them that's so magical. (ha. obviously.) So I am going to try and make a list, in chronological order, of all the fictional crushes I have had.

-Simba (From Lion King)
-TJ Dettweiler (From the TV show Recess)
-The Guy from the game Math Blaster (That might just be the dorkiest one)
-Link (From the video game Zelda)
-Matt (From the TV show Digimon)
-Izzy (From the TV show Digimon)
-Tai (From the TV show Digimon)
-Davis (From the TV show Digimon)
-This one guy from Cardcaptor Sakura (I think..I can't remember his name)
-Eric (From Boy Meets World)
-Matthias (sp?) (From the book Redwall)
-Haku (From the movie Spirited Away)
-George Weasley (You should know where he is from...)
-Prof. Lupin (haha a teacher crush)
-Frodo Baggins (If you don't know what he's from then I am ashamed..)
-Samwise Gamgee (Same story as Frodo)
-Pippin (Same as Samwise)
-Pazu (From the movie Castle in the Sky)
-Sam the Onion Picker (From Holes)
-Lightning McQueen (from Cars)
-Spiderman
-Wolverine
-Kronk (From the movie Emperor's New Groove)
-Prince Philip (From Sleeping Beauty)
-Baron Humpbert Von Gikkingen (from The Cat Returns)
-Peter Pan
-Buzz Lightyear (Fell in love with him at Disneyland)
-Howl (From Howl's Moving Castle)
-Sonic The Hedghog (From the video game duh)
-Shadow the Hedgehog
-Knuckles the Echidna (he has nice shoulders)
-Jim Halpert (From The Office)
-Seiji Amasawa (from Whisper of the Heart)
-Yamada Taro (From the show Yamada Taro)
-And Yamada's hot best friend of course
-The main guy from Pom Poko (What's his name?)
-Cyborg (From the show Teen Titans)
-Robin (From the show Teen Titans)
-Beast Boy (From the show Teen Titans)
-Bolt (from the movie Bolt) (Not as an animal!)
And most recently:
Luke Skywalker (and if you don't know what movie he is from, then you certainly don't deserve the title of nerd! or life.)
I've been watching the old Star Wars movie lately, and I just realized that luke is a great man! He has nice eyes, a good smile, willingness to learn, humble, caring, great sense of adventure...and he has the Force.

Should I explain myself? Well, let's just say I am attracted to males that have nice voices, eyes, like to take action, and have a heroic, caring demeanor.