Friday, June 19, 2009

The little things I like about summer

~Having time to clean my room
~The strong smells on summer nights. Flowers, cut grass, fabric softener, rivers, pond, and sprinklers...these aoll come out so beautifully during a walk arounf the neighborhood on summer nights.
~Downing Otter Pops when you get them at that perfect slushy stage.
~Going on walks at random places and parks around town.
~Little neighborhood kids coming over to play in the middle of the day and i actually have time to stop and say hi to them.
~Playing Dance Dance Revolution with Kristan at night even though it's sweltering hot. (so we open all the windows)
~Going out to check the mail and realizing how pretty everything is.
~Wearing shoes that are easy to put on
~Driving around at night with the windows down
~Free outdoor activities and not having to bring a sweater.

Thursday, June 18, 2009

Things in my life right now.

~Unemployment. At this point, I have little more than a month and a half to actually, you know, work...so I am going to keep looking for a job, but focus more of my energy on making money in other ways, such as making and selling accessories, babysitting, gig-like stuff, (such as working at events) etc. This whole job hunt has been so frustrating. I can't even let myself think about it too hard, because I just start thinking of all the things I could've done differently, and wondering why I am not good enough. Every step seems to have had a roadblock with it, and it's been really hard.

~Laryngitis. I haven't been able to sing for 3 weeks, which drives me nuts. It's taking a long time for my throat to heal, and that's partly my fault, because I talk a lot. ugh I just like talking so much though. I like clear communication where everything is confirmed and everybody says their point. But how I long to just sing along with the radio.

~Swine Flu. Craig (along with a few other friends) had it, which means I didn't get to see him for like a week and a half. I missed him. But now we get to hang out again, and it is really fun. It's always so fun with Craig

~Hair Accessories. Last night I had Miche and Jency come over and along with my sister Alyssa, we made tons and tons of cute stuff to wear in our hair. Making accessories feels so great to me. And now I have cute new things to wear!

~Support. I have had a few people be way more supportive and kind to me than I ever expected lately. This is good, because recently it seems like it has been one disaster after another for me, but I have such great friends pick me up off the ground and say, "Hey, people don't like you to be sad. Have some encouraging words and compliments, on me." :)

Sunday, June 7, 2009

Six of my Favorite People

A list of a few of my favorite people, celebrity, fictional, and local. Not all of course. I think I should make a new list every month, in order to tribute all the awesome people I know. (or know of)
Tim Gunn: He's the smartest man in fashion. Not only is he impeccably stylish, but he has a great sense of humor, is kind and polite to everyone, and is passionate for what he does. Basically, I wish he was my uncle.








Sonic The Hedgehog: The reason I like Sonic so much is that he's got that
confidence everyone wishes they had. You know, the confidence that enables you to do what ever you want, have confidence in others, and actually seem generally nice and humble. And he follows through with this confidence by have the time of his life doing what he loves. How could you not like someone like that?
Kelly: I won't put up a picture because I don't have one, but Kelly is the wonderful mother of an amazing family I have been privileged to babysit over the years. How different my life would be without these people! They are the ones that got me into Studio Ghibli, and my favorite video games. They have truly become some of my best friends. The thing I look up to Kelly for is that even though raising kids can be exhausting and time consuming, she manages to do fun activities with her husband and friends. (like dressing up in crazy clothes and going out to eat!) She hasn't gotten stuck in the "stressed out, boring grown-up" mindset that I see so many people get trapped in. I hope I turn out like that.
Miche: She is such a great example to me! In fact, I actually told a story about her in testimony meeting. One day, I picked her up from trax, and she was worried because she accidentally left her phone on the train! So, I called it to see if anyone found it, and no one answered. A few minutes later however, I got a call from her phone! And who was on the other side? Her mom! Her mom had happened to get on the exact same train a few stops away, and found her phone. And Miche's reaction? "I am so grateful my Heavenly Father loves and blesses me!" I am always reminded by her to be grateful for everything, even though she doesn't know she's reminding me. Another reason I love her: She is what i call a "lazy friend". You know those friends you don't see for months and they like you less because of it? Or they feel like you aren't pulling your weight in the relationship, so they get mad? Miche is not one of those people. sometimes we go a while without talking (we are both very busy people) but when we talk, things pick right up where they left off, with no awkwardness. We pick up each other's slack, and we are cool with it, because Miche knows that friendship is about having fun and caring for another person, not personal benefits. I am lucky to have her as my best friend.

Kristan: I have been waiting for an opportunity to put this picture on the Internet. Anyway, Kristan is great because sometimes she unknowingly gives me a slap in the face and reminds me to not sweat the small stuff. Laughter is important to this girl, and she'd much rather laugh than hold a grudge. If she's angry, she just says what's bothering her, and gets over it. No silent treatment, no catty remarks, just back to the fun and action.




Briar Rose: What can a dog teach a person? Well, I think Briar Rose has been a great teacher or humility and forgiveness. She is so sweet and loving, and doesn't hold back. She wants everyone to be happy, and lives to give her support and service. I am not even kidding. Just pretend to be sad around her and watch her reaction. She's the most sympathetic...person...that I know, and i think we all would be better people if we followed her example.

Craig: Oh man, where do I start? With a story. Yesterday I of course, was kinda grumpy, tired, and had a headache. I wasn't very nice. While I was attempting to microwave some teriyaki chicken for Craig and I to eat for dinner, I said something snippish and he just said "Why are you so grumpy today Brynn?" And I told him...I am tired of being sick, I want to go to sleep, but we have to go watch my sisters choir performance, etc...and he replied with "What can I do to help?" He could've taken the whole situation in another direction, but he is great at choosing the peaceful way. Then as we were leaving (late) to the concert, I reached into my purse to find all of the contents of my purse wet and sticky. I then pulled out my now-opened and upside-down bottle of precious cough syrup to see most of its remains spill onto the driveway. This was too much for me in my half asleep, sickly state, and Craig knew it. So he took me inside, helped me wash off my lip balm, wallet, etc., and filled up the sink to soak the lining of my purse. He did all this without being frustrated at my stupidity of not checking the lid, not minding how late we were. That's just one of the great things about Craig. He knows how to deal with problems without drama, moodiness, or stress. He's always rescuing me from the little disasters I tend to have. In a way, he's a bit like Briar Rose, and now you know that that's a great compliment to his character. I love my boyfriend.

Tuesday, June 2, 2009

Being Sick

So I have been sick for the past couple weeks, and it has sucked. Especially this past weekend, where i couldn't stop coughing and had a fever. Bleh. But now I am almost better, so I thought I would write down a bunch of the remedies I used and how they worked for me.

1. Ny Quil- I used this 3 nights in a row. The first night was great, even though it wore off a half hour before it was time for the next dosage. But I slept well when it was in my system. The second night it wore off sooner, and i didn't bother taking a second dosage. The third night, it did nothing. No sleepyness, no pain relief, no cough suppression. So I guess you shouldn't take it too much in a row or your body will become immune to it.
2. Tussin DM-This is basically just standard cough syrup. It kinda worked.
3. Herba Tussin-This was an herbal tea that I found to be pretty helpful. It doesn't taste bad and it felt really good on my throat. It wasn't always strong enough, but I don't think much would be for the throat problems I had.
4. Cough Drops-I got some cough drops that are supposed to numb your throat. They worked, but once it was fully dissolved, the effect went away pretty quickly.
5. Sucrets Ice- Awesome stuff. Felt sooo good and the effect lasted a little longer than cough drops. They also can be safely taken every two hours, unlike the aforementioned numbing cough drops.
6. Throat Coat herbal tea- I always stand by this stuff. It feels awesome and tastes really good.
7. Hot lemon Jello-It sounds wierd, but you just take some lemon jello powder and put it on hot water and drink it. My friend told me to do it. It actually felt great and tasted better than many options.
8. Gargling warm salty water-this is supposed to soothe your throat. It's worked on me before, but not so much this time. Again, I think what i had was just too severe.
9. Honey and Lemon Juice with warm water-This is also supposed to soothe your throat. It didn't worked for me, but other people swear by it.

If you have a really severe cough like i did, you really should go to the doctor. Coughs of course aren't serious and people usually get over them in a week or so, which means that most people don't go to the doctor for it. But! I went to the doctor and he gave me a prescription for cough syrup that really works! I have improved so much since taking this stuff. Also, remember to drink lots of water (not just liquids) because water dilutes your mucus, making it easier to get out of your system.

Wednesday, May 27, 2009

Fun things

Sometimes, you should just document the fun days that happen.
Today, I didn't do anything work-ish. No cleaning, no job hunting...(Mostly because I am waiting to get some calls) no organizing...and that was nice. I have been doing a lot of cleaning to fill the void in my life that unemployment has made. Not having some sort of structured work is depressing to me. I really hope I find a job soon, because I don't know how long I can go like this.

Anyway, here's what I did instead that made today fun:

-Watched some homeschool kids do reports on recent projects they did.
There is this thing my sisters are involved in (and I used to be involved in) called Great Brain. It's a club where kids get together each month to present projects they have been doing, such as research reports, learning a new skill, becoming an expert at something. The subject is thier choice. I did one on the history of slang when i was in highschool. This is a great thing to do, because it's fun (if you enjoy learning), you get exposed to new things, and you get practice in public speaking. Today, I heard about Ripsticks, Box Turtles, a few writers, Karate, and what it's like writing short stories for a magazine. I enjoy being an information junkie.

- I went to see Dragonball Evolution in the dollar theatre. Which was so cheesy and I thoroughly enjoyed. I can see how people wouldn't like it, but I really did like it, and I would watch it again. On the way out of the theatre, and spent my precious quarters on some vending machines and got a little ring and necklace. :)

-Craig and I went to play at the park, where we enjoyed an array of outdoor orf instruments. Craig is very musically intelligent. I decided I want a big wooden xylophone thing in my backyard when I grow up. After those, we played on the swings. I think swings are one of the best recreational inventions ever. I love how it feels to soar through the air on a swing. After the swings, we played with other playground things and in the kids fountain. We also discovered tables with chess boards on them...so we will being doing that soon.

In conclusion, a list of things Craig and I need to do this summer:
-have a picnic on the grass
-Make a campfire on the park stoves
-have a campfire in the mountains
-go on lots of hikes
-play checkers on those tables (because I suck at chess)
-go on some more bike rides
-get cupcakes
-go to a water park
-go to lagoon!
-make a music video
-learn some songs together

Thursday, May 21, 2009

Ahhhhh!

Maybe my brain doesn't work as well while I have a cold, and it makes me easily overwhelmed. Because I am really overwhelmed.
I have been trying pretty hard to find a job in the past couple weeks, and I haven't gotten one yet because people don't want to hire someone that has to leave in two months. What happened to the concept of summer jobs? No one seems to be hiring for the summer. It's been hard for me to find a legit place that actually is hiring. And when I do, they are looking for someone to be a permanent employee.

To make things a little more difficult, I got a bad cold this week. It has just made it harder for me to think, and I don't really want to go out job hunting if I am going to sound like a frog. Bleh...

Also, I have an opportunity to nanny full time for a 4 month old baby. I don't know how I feel about that. I suppose I'll have to see how it pays along with the other details. But the thing is that I am so sad that the baby and her mother will be missing out on 8 hours of bonding time nearly every day. I am just so glad that my mom stayed at home for me and my sisters. Kids need to have the safety and and comfort that only thier mothers can give them.

But I don't know yet all the details of this job or how well it would work out. So we'll see. Also, I don't know if I know enough about babies to do a good job taking care of one full time...

On the bright side....

I had an awesome time hanging out with Miche and Jency. Those girls surely brighten up my life. We had some awesome fun Monday and Tuesday being girls, going to the mall, taking pictures, talking out faces off...all that. It was refreshing.


The Ren Faire is over! Which means I can finally make stuff for myself. There are a lot of hair accessories I want to make. I also bought some neat things. I didn't sell much, but hopefully I can sell a lot on etsy, because I think I have some fabulous things that maybe a non-touristy audience would love to buy.

Craig and I worked on my Ocarina Of Time game tonight. I love Zelda. It's definitely one of my little escapist things. Also, Craig is a smart person. The nicest thing about him though, is that he's usually really chill and fun to hang out with. And very sweet, of course.

Tomorrow Craig and I get to go see Star Trek (yessssss) with my old buddy Peaches and a friend of his. I am very excited! First of all, I have heard amazing things about this movie. Second of all, I get to see Peaches! Oh my heck! I haven't seen him in forever! He's like a brother to me. I am so glad I get to go do this tomorrow, because there has just been so much pressure in my life (School, Ren Faire, Job hunting) and this will be a nice little break where I can just forget about it.

Last, but not least, my voice teacher is getting me to throw a little concert/recital before I move, as kind of a "graduation/goodbye" thing. At first I was reluctant to do this (Put together an event that features just me? Won't that be wierd? Won't people get bored?) but now I am actually excited. It's a good excuse to see a lot of people before I leave, and it'll be good for the voice studio. And so far, everyone I have told about it has seemed sincerely excited and they really want to come. I will be practicing a lot to make it worth everyone's time.

So there you go! A little update on what's going on...I should know by now that there is no hope that my life will calm down.

Saturday, May 9, 2009

Accomplishments

I admit it, I catch myself envying other's talents and accomplishments much much more than I ever want to. How do they fit it all in? I don't know.
But then again, I see others envying MY talents and accomplishments, which is crazy to me, but it makes me realize that I am right in the middle of the talent spectrum, which I think is a good place to be, when it comes down to it. I mean, I certainly am no prodigy, but I have gotten to dabble around in a lot of different things.

And what's more important to me than how awesome I am at such and such, is that i can help others be happy. And if being approachable, not having way high expectations for myself and those around me, and letting people be themselves aides me in that, then I can feel like I have done a good job at life. Because i think those are quatlities that are often lacking. People get so high strung about whether they are "excellent" or those around them are "excellent" enough to associate with them, and then they get all rude, and do those little micro-inequities to everyone. Which is sad. It's sad to try and be friends with someone and get a mixed message. Or, to feel pressure to not be yourself, because it's to lame, too wierd, too disorganized.

Maybe some of you can tell now that I have had experiences like this. And i can tell you, it sucks to feel like you HAVE to justify and explain everything you do. And it really sucks to not truly show who you are around someone, because you just don't feel like hearing crap about it. And it sucks even more when thier snooty behaivior rubs off on you, and you start catching yourself acating like that.

Well I have pretty much had it with that.

So I am not even going to explain why I am making the two following lists.

Recent Accomplishments I have had that I am excited about:
1. I have a booth with my sisters at the Renaissance Festival. How awesome is that?!
2. The other day, I carried a huge bin (like as in i could fit in it) that was full of stuff and very heavy down to my car all by myself. A few months ago, I probably couldn't have lifted that bin.
3. I lost 10 pounds! I feel so great. I have so much more energy than before!
4. I can hula hoop!
5. I can take a plain silver plate, or little balls of silver, silver wire, etc, and make something awesome. I never thought before that I would be making silver jewelry! I never even thought of that as something people do.
6. I have become a tiny bit like a fashion icon at my school. When I walk into a building, people i know are actually anticipating seeing what I am wearing! I just gotta thank all my institute friends for that support!
7. I have been teaching piano for like, more than 2 years! I love it. My students are awesome and it's amazing to help them make music.
8. I have been dating Craig for almost a year. It's amazing that he hasn't like, gone insane from how annoying and stupid I can get. I am so glad he hasn't.
9. I have a freaking 2 year, full tuition scolarship. This is such a huge blessing to me, and it's awesome to think that I got the grades to qualify for it.

Now here is a list of accomplishments I've been wanting to work on:
1. Learn to sew. I've got the designs, I just can't make them yet. This is always my problem. I always have the vision, the inspriration, but executing it is harder for me.
2. Learn to decorate cakes really well. I would love for kids and friends to come to me with a request for thier birthday cake.
3. Get really good at playing Clair de Lune on piano.
4. Get better at doing my hair. It's always in a ponytail with my bangs pinned back, or just down and straight, or in pigtails, or in a headband. I am not very creative when it comes to hair.
5. Learn to cook, at least well enough so I don't die when I move out.